IM fucking stupid

im so stupid. i dont know what the hell is up with me. like now. i dont kno
im just being stupid and i dont wanna be stupid to him. im gonna fuck us up again. im so fucking stupid right now i wish i wasnt with him so i couldnt do this shit. i just wish i could just go to sleep and not wake up. i just hate myself right now.. and i already pissed him off.

i dont even kno why hes with me. All i am is a false hope
all i know that is true is that right now.
if i could pay for sumthing to make me change who i am right now i would pay anything not
to be like this to him.

just cus i haet myself i shouldnt be taken it out on him.
Just i cant stop and thats all i want to do
hes gonna get sick of me i kno it.
yet i cant stop
and thats the last thing in the world that i want is to lose him yet.
im not stopping. i dunno what the hell is wrong with me